Sunday, October 23, 2011

My First Gay Experience


When I grew up in Green Bay in the 50’s and 60’s there were no gay people in town.  Now, anyone with half a brain knows that is an absurd statement.  But is it?

Depending on whose statistics you choose to believe, a city with the population of 60 thousand souls will contain anywhere from a few hundred to a few thousand gay people.  Yet, I can honestly say I never met an openly gay person during my first 19 years in Green Bay.  There were no parades, no gay characters on television or the movies, or any gay gathering places in town known to the general populace.

As a result, there were anywhere from a few hundred to a few thousand people in town walking around with a secret, that if revealed, would have exposed them to possible physical violence, prosecution, loss of their livelihoods, ridicule, and the destruction of family relationships.  So it isn’t surprising that all of these citizens were forced to conceal their true selves and remain invisible in the communities they helped to build.

In 1971, I along with two friends decided to abandon the northern winter and head south to Mexico.  Our plan was to travel to Mexico in a 1963 Volkswagen bug, spend as much time in Mexico as our money allowed and then drive up the coast of California where Gary and I would relocate to San Francisco.  Don, who had been recently diagnosed with cancer and was in remission, obtained his doctor’s blessing to make the trip.

We took off on a cold Wisconsin morning and drove to Des Moines where we stopped because of dire weather predictions of an impending ice storm.  In order to save money for Mexico we sought out the cheapest accommodations we could find and that lead us to the Iowa Inn.  It was an old hotel that had seen better days and all I really remember about it was that someone kept playing a song called “Popcorn” over and over for a few hours and a resident who knocked on our door and asked if we would like to see his light bulb collection.  Never one to turn down an intriguing invitation, I went with him to a closet down the hall and sure enough, he had a room full of light bulbs.

The next day was cold and sunny.  We went out to the car and found it encased in about a quarter inch of ice.  We used a small cook stove I was packing to melt the ice in the door locks and then spent a considerable amount of time de-icing the windows before hitting the road again.

Before long we crossed over into Arkansas and entered the foothills of the Ozark Mountains.  Around 3:00pm it began to rain and as our elevation increased, the temperature began to drop.  Within an hour, the rain turned to a combination of sleet and ice.

As road conditions got worse, we were reluctant to stop because our first day on the road had been cut short and we wanted to get to the Mexican border and warm weather as soon as possible.  At one point we came to a steep incline and the old Volkswagen couldn’t make it to the top.  Displaying a combination of determination and stupidity, we decided to back down the hill and get a running start to see if we could get over the hill and keep going.  Down the hill we backed, and then when we had backed up far enough to get up a good head of steam, we attacked the hill again.  We all started to celebrate as we crested the hill when our celebration was cut short by what lie in front of us.

As we came over the hill we saw that the road took a fairly sharp turn to the left with a sheer rock mountainside on the left side of the road.  On the right side was a drop where the treetops were about 30 feet below the road.  To make matter worse the road was very icy and the Volkswagen’s breaks were bad.  There was no going back as we began to spin in a series of 360’s.  If I had been given the opportunity to pick a friend to be behind the wheel in this situation, it would have been Don.  He was a great athlete and one of those people who could remain calm in the middle of a shit storm.  After we had made two 360’s we banged into the mountainside and came to rest about 4 feet from the drop off.

We piled out and examined the damage to the car.  Don was uneasy about leaving his car that close to the cliff.  I was ready to walk six miles to the next town in an ice storm.  As we were debating our options two good old boys pulled up in a pickup truck with four wheel drive and chains on its tires.  Don went to talk with them and it was decided that they would attach a chain to the Volkswagen’s front axel and tow it away from the cliff and back on the road.  Gary and I wanted no part of this plan and stood off to the side while Don attached a long chain to the front of his car and jumped into the driver’s seat. To make a long story short, the boys in the truck took off and the Volkswagen, with Don behind the wheel, began to slide sideways.  It slammed into the mountainside and careened back toward the cliff coming to rest about two feet from the cliff.  This experience convinced, even Don, the car was best left where it was until the ice storm stopped.

The good old boys left and we reexamined our options.  We were six miles from Eureka Springs and it was raining ice.  As we looked around we saw a small house down in the valley and decided to seek help there.
 
When we got there we found a woman in her twenties with a couple of kids.  In a remarkable display of trust she invited us into her home and told us her husband was on his way home and when he arrived he would give us a lift back to town.  Before too long, her husband, who turned out to be the editor of the local newspaper, arrived and agreed to take us back to town.  We piled into his four-wheel drive jeep and drove the six miles to town.

Our first stop in town was the editor’s office, where he placed a phone call in an attempt to find someone who could help us out so he could head back home to his family.  After he made contact with a local artist named Larry, we piled back in his jeep and he took us to a coffee house and introduced us to Larry.  The coffee house was full of longhaired young folks and seemed completely out of place in the Ozark Mountains in 1971.  Larry greeted us and assured us he would find a place for us to stay.  He had some errands to run and some people to talk with about our lodging and told us to meet him back at the coffee house at 8:00pm.

Feeling glum after a shortened first day and the uncertainty of our current situation, we sought out a bar to drown our sorrows and plot our next moves.  The bar we found was a classic old time bar that had been designed for drinking and shooting the bull and very little else.

As we walked in the bar, we couldn’t help but notice the clientele.  There were the seed cap guys, hippies, and real back woods types spread out along the bar.  It was such an odd combination of people that we couldn’t help but wonder what planet we had landed on.  After a couple of beers our spirits lifted slightly and we began to see we were lucky to be alive and whatever came next was better than having plunged off a cliff in a Volkswagen bug.

We were definitely feeling better after our third beer when we heard a commotion down at the other end of the bar.  A guy in bib overalls with a magnificent head of curly hair down to the middle of his back and a beard that covered a good portion of his upper chest, had come into the bar, and engaged most of the various denizens in a lively conversation.  The most striking thing about the guy was his incredibly high falsetto voice.  He only stayed a few minutes and when he left we asked the bar tender “who is that?”  He told us his name was Glen Wallace but everyone around Eureka Springs called him the Hairy Fairy.  He apparently had a weekly column in the newspaper entitled “The Hairy Fairy” and from what we could tell, he appeared to be on speaking and joking terms with all sectors of the population of this weird place.

As 8:30 approached we walked back to the coffee house and met up with Larry.  Larry told us he had secured lodging for us but first he wanted to take us on a walking tour of the town.  He grabbed a bottle of Jack Daniels and we headed out.  By now the ice had turned to big, beautiful flakes of snow.  The town itself was incredible.  It was on three levels with all kinds of Victorian buildings.  It was like something out of fairy tale, especially with the snow falling and the intermittent slugs off the Jack Daniels bottle.  Larry explained that Eureka Springs had once been famous for its hot springs and had been a place that had, at one time, attracted the rich and famous.  The population of the town had wildly fluctuated over time until the hot springs had dried up.  Now it was a small town with all of these incredible structures nestled into the Ozarks.  Larry said the place’s natural beauty had attracted artists and hippies and that they had somehow come to live in peace and respect with the locals and the hill people who lived in the surrounding countryside.

Larry led us up an incline toward a huge three story Victorian house.  The house sat on a hill and we learned later it was known as “Yeller House” and all you had to do to get a letter there was address it “Yeller House, Eureka Springs, Arkansas.  As we made our way up the incline a second story window opened and an extremely high pitched falsetto voice called our “Larry, is that you?”  Yeller House was where we were going to spend the night.

We entered the house and the Hairy Fairy directed us to a room on the second floor.  We sat there while Larry and our host talked in another room.  While we were waiting we looked around the room and noticed that everything in it looked old but in very good condition.  I can’t speak for Gary or Don but I have to admit I was feeling a bit uneasy.  Gary, who had taken an interest in ballet at the University of Wisconsin, opened up a coffee table book about the career of the famous ballerina Margot Fonteyn.  When Glen joined us he saw that Gary was looking at the book and he was instantly delighted that Gary knew who she was and that he had recently taken a ballet class.

We were pretty exhausted with everything that had happened that day and Glen took us to a big second floor bedroom and left us for the night.

The next day Glen was busy and we sought out the local mechanic because we had decided we needed brakes on a several thousand-mile journey and wanted to replace the master brake cylinder on the Volkswagen.  We also wanted to see about pulling out a couple of the dents the car had suffered as it pin-balled off the mountainside.  We tracked down the town mechanic and he told us he would do the job but it might take him some time to get to it.  We had already observed the pace of this place and really weren’t too anxious to find out what “some time” meant in Eureka Springs time.   The garage owner asked if we could fix the car ourselves.  Don knew how to do most things and he felt he could fix the brakes if he had the right tools.  With that, the mechanic threw us the keys to his business, and told us to lock up when we were done.  The rest of the day, Gary and I handed tools to Don as he fixed the brakes.

That night we sat around Yeller House with Glen.  I have to admit I was still not completely at ease with this very different individual.  But then we began to talk and he turned out to have a great sense of humor, was a great storyteller and such an obviously interesting person that all the unease vanished.  It was like sitting and talking with a guy who looked like Grizzly Adams but sounded like Julia Childs.

He told us he was from Little Rock and had been a student in the high school where the famous integration battles had taken place.  His skill at making the narrative come alive really gave me a sense of what those times were like as opposed to reading a dry account in a newspaper.  He told us about his time as a hairdresser in Memphis and how he had once been summoned to cut Elvis’s hair.  He also told us that he had been a chef at one of Memphis’s first upscale vegetarian restaurants.  As the night went on he asked us about life in Wisconsin and fully endorsed our trip to see what else was out there.  We ended up spending a very nice and very interesting evening getting to know each other.  As we were getting ready to call it night, he told us that he wanted to cook a vegetarian meal for us before we left because he wanted to prove to us that vegetarian meals were not all boring.

The next morning, he asked us if we would like to take a guided hike through the surrounding countryside.  We agreed and shortly thereafter we headed out into the forest.  The temperature had risen into the mid to high thirties and it was a bright sunny day.  The snow remained from a couple of nights before and it was a beautiful place.  We saw a lot of cardinals that day and their red feathers set off against the white snow added a dash of bright color.

As we walked Glen told us about the land we were walking through.  He pointed out the “homes” of the hill people.  These were shelters that had been built with any and everything they had found lying around.  Tar paper, corrugated tin, logs, all tacked together to make a shelter.  Glen explained that “hillbillies” still lived in these hills and that family feuds were not a thing entirely of the past.  A couple of weeks before we had made our appearance in Eureka Springs, a shoot out had occurred in town reminiscent of the Hatfields and McCoys.

I must admit I have struggled with the “hillbillies” label.  I’m not sure, but my guess is it is considered derogatory.   I considered “hillwilliams” but that conjured up images of San Francisco butlers, so I settled on hill people.

Glen led us up a mountain to the base of the Christ of the Ozarks statue.  This is a famous landmark that you used to see on post cards back when people sent postcards.  The story behind the statue was an interesting one.  The statue was much more impressive from a distance.  Once you got up close it looked like someone had placed Christ’s head on a giant milk carton and the spread-out arms looked unnatural.  There was a small wrought iron fence around the statue and hymns were playing on a continuous loop.  There was a gravesite for the man who had erected the statue and his wife.   The wife was buried there and the plan was for her husband to join her when he kicked the bucket.

The man behind the Christ of the Ozarks was Gerald L. K. Smith.  Smith had purchased a mansion on the hillside outside of Eureka Springs and lived there.  He was the owner of the annual Passion Play of the Ozarks that was a very popular stop for tourists in the Bible Belt.  He hired the locals to play roles in the passion play at minimum wage and made a lot of money.  The woman you bought a candy bar from at a corner store might have spent last summer as the Virgin Mary.

Gerald L. K. Smith was an interesting fellow.  He was an early right-wing radio personality who mixed extreme racism and Christianity.  In the thirties he became a mover and shaker in a group called the Silver Shirts which were modeled after the Brown Shirts that were terrorizing Germany at the time.  Apparently his racism was so virulent that he made even run-of-the-mill racists uneasy and he became isolated politically.  He then turned back to religion and made a nice living helping white people find Christ.

Gerald is now buried with his wife at the base of the Christ of the Ozarks statue.  I have a fantasy that his plot is really a barbeque pit and he turns on a spit over an eternal flame reserved for racist Nazi sympathizers.  But that’s just me.

Glen explained that Gerald had plans to cut down much of the forest we had been walking, in order to build replicas of Bethlehem and Jerusalem.  I am happy to report that those plans never came to fruition and that beautiful piece of land survived.

The next evening Glen prepared his vegetarian meal for us.  Now, I know this will come as a shock to many of you, but I am not a foodie.  There are few, if any, meals that I remember unless they were so bizarre or awful as to be unforgettable.  I was a meat and potatoes guy and, in my opinion, a meal with out meat was definitely missing the best part.  When we got back to Yeller House the next evening, the table was set and the house smelled of freshly baked bread.  The table settings were all antique (it turned out that everything in the house was antique) and we sat down not knowing what to expect.  Everyone got their own, individually baked loaf of bread fresh out of the oven and everything was really good.  I don’t have a clue as to what went into the sauces Glen had prepared but I ate all I could stuff myself with and ended up with a new appreciation for the possibilities of vegetables.

That night we told Glen we were going to turn in early because we were going to get up early and hit the road to try and make up for lost time.  He told us he hated good byes and said he would not get up to see us off.  The next day, bright and early, we packed up our stuff and quietly headed down the stairs to leave.  Just as we started down the stairs we heard that falsetto voice call out “I love you”.  We paused on the stairs and we, three straight boys from Green Bay, in unison croaked back, “We love you too.”

They say first impressions are important and I have come to conclude, who ever ‘they’ is, they are right.  The first openly gay man I ever spent any time with turned out to be an interesting, funny, kind man.  As we spent those days together the fact that he was gay and his flamboyant style faded away so completely and we were able to see him as an individual worth knowing and respecting.

As I think of him now, I think of how brave he was to insist on living his life in his own way.  Maybe he was so flamboyant that it would have been impossible for him to live it any other way.  Regardless, I will always remember the first gay individual I actually got to know and be thankful that we got to spend some time with the Hairy Fairy.





Sunday, October 16, 2011

Thank God for MEA Weekend

Hello Again Blog Readers,

As it turns out, I'm sort of busy.  And by sort of, I mean of course, that even as I write this I am thinking about the fact that I have 2 packs of baseline subject-verb agreement assessment to grade and also, what am I going to do with 6th hour tomorrow?  But seriously, what am I going to do with my 6th hour tomorrow?  Shoot.  Maybe a short spelling bee with vocabulary words (we're working on the letters of the alphabet and desert vocabulary).  I'll be right back...

Ok, you can't tell, but 15 minutes have passed and I have not decided what to do with 6th hour.  I've got some ideas; they'll probably firm up as I go.  Tomorrow I have an hour and a half before school and two prep hours before then, so I'll be ready, don't you worry.  If you're thinking, jeez, don't you plan farther in advance than a day?  Well, yes, mostly I do.  But like I said before, I'm kinda busy.  Also, I've got 3 of my four classes totally prepared for this 2 day week, so there!

Yes, it's a 2 day week.  Hallelujah!  You know it's a big deal if I'm driven to religious outbursts that come from who-knows-where, but hallelujah sure does feel appropriate right now!  In fact, hallelujah again!  Last weekend Pako and I flew to Kansas City, Missouri for the wedding of a good friend of mine from undergrad, Alison.  It was super fun to be there for her big day (beautiful wedding) and to see all of my other friends from Madison, but dang, I'm STILL tired!  I wouldn't change it, but I shall not be complaining when Wednesday rolls along and I can get up later than usual and won't have to be on at every moment.  I'll be at school grading and planning (to get farther ahead than just one day) on Wednesday, but there's a big bump in my productivity level when there aren't 550 middle-schoolers milling around.  Then Thursday and Friday are mine to do with what I like!  YAY!

What else can I tell you?  'Where to start?' is probably a better question to ask.  I have good kids, again!  I got lucky 2 years a row at Montessori (ok, I know I complained a lot about certain classes, but they were all good kids, even if they became somewhat hellish when all together) and I got lucky again this year.  Yes, some of my kids are what I would deem 'mild stinkers,' but no one that has me in tears by the end of the day.  Let's all take a minute to knock on wood and hope that my luck continues.  Most of my students are Latino, but I also have Somali, Hmong and Oromo students.  Throughout the day, I do get the itch to speak Spanish because I'm hearing it all day, but luckily I have Pako at home to help me with that! 

Tomorrow I have my first round of conferences with parents after school.  I'm not sure what to expect as I only got to sit in on one set during student teaching and it was for high school Spanish class, not middle school ESL.  My class averages are hovering at a C+/B-, which I think is pretty ok, but we'll see what the parents think.  I've heard horror stories (which probably are more due to the fact that we have to stay after school an extra 2.5 hours and then be early by 2 hours the next day than to cranky parents), but I don't really expect anything too bad.  I'll let you know how things go the next time my dad reminds me that this blog sort of belongs to me, too.

For now, that has to be all because I need to think about 6th hour tomorrow.  Also, the Brewers are down 9-5 and I'm going to need to really concentrate on sending them rally vibes! 

Take care all, stay tuned, the grouch will be back at it again some time this week!

xoxo - The Teacher

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Why I Hate Pickles

Once upon a time, I was driven mad by pickles.  You scoff and ask “how can a man be driven insane by pickles?”  In my defense, it wasn’t just pickles, but hundreds of thousands of pickles.

The summer after I graduated from high school, I was confronted with a harsh reality.  It had always been assumed that I would go to college and that time was approaching and in order to pay my tuition I needed to get a job.  The plan, such as it existed, was that I would go to the local branch of the University of Wisconsin for my first year and then transfer to Madison the following year.

Fortunately, this was a time when the country valued education and had policies in place to help everyone who wanted to pursue an education to be able to do so without having to incur a huge debt.  The tuition at that time was $365 a semester and books were probably another $100.  With my parents allowing me to live and eat at home I needed roughly $1000 for my first year.

Unfortunately, that summer the country was in a deep recession and summer jobs had dried up.  My father had been able to get my older brother a job in the office he worked at but one job was all he could help provide and my brother had college costs to cover for two years before I graduated from high school. 

 I had no marketable skills to offer, and without any connections to people that could provide a job, my search was proving to be difficult.  After exploring all other avenues, I submitted my application to the ‘pickle factory.’ The pickle factory was probably a notch higher than the local “packing house” and had the advantage of being relatively close to my parent’s home.  Complicating matters was the full employment plan Uncle Sam was running for those of us that didn’t go to school.  So, reluctantly, I went to work at the pickle factory.

My fun new job was packed full of perks.  Just to give you a feel for the place, here are a few of the most outstanding features:

  • Pay:  I was paid the minimum wage of $1.70 an hour.  Just to put that into perspective, that totaled $68 for a forty-hour week before taxes and deductions.
  • Hours:  Fortunately I didn’t have to rely on just forty hours a week, because we started work at 4:30 pm and worked till 4:30 in the morning 6 days a week.
  • Safety:  The factory itself was old and the various pieces of machinery had long ago been stripped of anything that had been designed to prevent the loss of fingers and limbs. Many of the regular employees (we called them “lifers”) had contributed digits to the production of pickles.  An alarming number of them were able to give the famous University of Texas “hook ‘em horns” hand sign without really trying.
    • The corporate attitude toward safety was interesting.  When you entered the factory there was a sign announcing the number of consecutive days with out a reportable injury.  The sign boasted that it had been over 250 days since the last injury.  On my first day I remember walking past that sign and just a few steps further seeing a fellow sitting on a stool with a fresh plaster cast on his leg.  Later I found out he had broken his leg at work, but had been required to come every day and sit on the stool and do nothing to prevent the company from having to “report” an injury.
  • Noise:  The machinery produced, in certain areas of the factory, a constant roar.  I discovered you don’t miss quiet until it disappears.
  • Smell:  Every day, free of charge, the factory provided each employee with a free spritz  of “Eau de Gherkin.”  I remember going with a couple of co-workers to an all night greasy spoon for breakfast at 5:00am, and having the entire, mostly drunk, clientele look up and sniff disapprovingly.   I remember the waitress being not exactly rude, but leaving little doubt she didn’t want to see (or for that matter smell) us again.  As a result, our breakfast get-togethers ended.

Pickles:  An often overlooked cause of mental illness

My first night on the job I was required to load over 6 thousand cases of pickles on pallets that were picked up by forklift and stacked in piles to the ceiling in the storage area of the factory.  By about the three thousandth case my arms felt like spaghetti and my shoulders and back ached.  Little did I know that this was one of the best jobs I would be asked to do and I had been assigned there in the hope I wouldn’t quit my first night, as many did.

The next couple of nights I was assigned various dirty, dangerous, noisy and backbreaking tasks.  They must have concluded I wasn’t going anywhere (I needed the income) so I was given the opportunity to savor all of the variety the factory had to offer.

The morale of the seasonal workers was comparable to what I imagine a fairly well run prison experiences.  There was a sense of inevitability and, while no one was happy to be there, the crew was mostly cooperative and the work was getting done.

Then an incident involving an American Nazi changed everything almost over night.  BOOM, you didn’t see that one coming, did you?  What a story – pickles and Nazis – oh my.

One night during our lunch break, that would come about four and a half hours after we had started the shift, one of our co-workers told us he was a card-carrying member of the American Nazi Party.  We were stunned because every one liked this guy.  He was a good guy to be teamed with because he pulled his weight and could carry on a conversation, which helped to while away the long hours.  He had never spouted any Nazi party bullshit and had never denigrated minority people or ever given any indication of his horrible political leanings.  I remember being stunned by his announcement and telling him he was full of shit, but there wasn’t much we could do and he remained the same guy we had liked before we knew he was a Nazi.

One of the jobs we did involved packing cases of pickles as they game through the oven, up to the factory floor, through the labeling machine and then to a row of four employees who hand packed the cases and sent them down through the machine that sealed the cases.  The four packers, stood with a conveyor between them and where the pickles would arrive and would grab boxes and put them on the conveyor and then reach across and hand pack the cases.  Try this for 10 to 12 hours and you will find out what a real backache feels like.

Another delightful feature of this job, was that at least once a night, and often times more, you would grab the still hot jars and go to lift them, to put them in the case, and all you would get was a jagged shard of glass.  Apparently the cooking process weakened a certain percentage of the jars and hair line cracks developed and when the worker grabbed them by the top, expecting the full weight of the jar, all he got was the top half of the jar.

One night our Nazi was working this job and he must have been leaning a certain way when he grabbed a jar that came apart and he dragged the jagged edge across his wrist.  The foreman was called and he took the Nazi to the office where they punched him out on the time clock and drove him to the emergency room to be sewn up.  I was pulled off the job I was doing and replaced my injured co-worker on the packing line.

About two hours later, the newly sewn up Nazi was brought back to the factory, punched in on the time clock and sent back to the packing line.  When he showed up on the floor he was whiter than even a Nazi should ever be and told us the doctor told him if the cut had been a millimeter to one side of the other he would have slit a major artery and he probably wouldn’t have made it to the ER.

Word spread like wild fire among the crew that the company had punched him out to go to the ER and had punched him back in so he could finish his shift so no injury report would need to be filed with the insurance company.  It’s kind of funny that no one objected to the dangerous conditions of the job.  That was a given.  What really set people off was that they had in effect docked him for the time he spent being sewn up. 

The Nazi had also overheard a conversation while he was waiting in the office for some one to take him to the ER.   Apparently, in the middle of a deep recession, the pickle factory had no job applications on file.  You have to understand how tenuous a position that put the factory in because when the cucumbers arrive you have to make pickles.  You can’t slow down or things literally rot.

This incident coupled with the bit of job application intelligence radically changed the morale in the factory almost overnight.  What happened next is the subject for another blog post but I wanted to mention the shift in attitude here in order to help put into context my own experience.

One night our foreman came and got me at the beginning of the shift.  He told me he had a job for me and I followed him to a part of the factory I had never been in before.  He brought me to a small space in front of a very large oven where they baked the pickles.  The mouth of the oven was about 20 feet wide and the temperature, according to a nearby thermometer, was well above 100 degrees.  The job was to make sure that the pickle jars were guided to a single conveyor at one end of the oven, so the jars would proceed single file up to the factory floor where they would go through the labeler. The foreman showed me a red button that would shut down the track that brought the pickles through the oven and told me that I could shut down the oven track for a total of two minutes a night.  So, if I shut it down to clear a log jam at the conveyor leading upstairs I was to keep track and make sure it was not shut down for more than two minutes during the shift.  He told me that shutting it down for more than two minutes could lead to an explosion.  He also told me that due to the nature of this job he would come and get me after four hours and reassign me to some other job for the remainder of the shift.  Then he left and before long I could see the pickle jars making their way through the oven toward me.

As I watched I saw thousands of quart jars of pickles heading my way slowly but surely.  When they started to arrive the job required you to run back and forth in front of the oven mouth making sure they lined up in single file so they could proceed upstairs. 

The pickles came relentlessly and after a couple of hours I was really looking forward to the passing of the next couple hours when the foreman would reassign me to another job.  Around my third hour in front of the oven, the pickles were changed to 12 oz. jars.  At first I thought this was a good thing because the jars were smaller and lighter.  What I didn’t take into consideration was that because they were smaller there was a hell of a lot more of them.  The job actually got harder as the greater number of jars caused greater numbers of jam-ups to clear.  The relentless march of pickles would go on and on and breaking up the jams required pushing jars back so you could sort them back into single file.  Meanwhile they were jamming up at the other end of the oven mouth.

At about the three and half hour mark I was really glad I only had thirty minutes to go.  I was drenched in sweat, tired, hot and beginning to hate pickles.  As the four-hour mark came, the foreman was nowhere to be seen.  As my normal lunch break came and went I started to get angry.  Now on top of the general misery, I was getting hungry.  

I would classify my mood as foul at this time.

Around the sixth hour in front of the oven, much to my horror, the pickles switched to 8 oz. jars.  It was like staring at a Chinese army of pickles bearing down on me.  At this point I had a real healthy amount of self-pity and rage that only the teenage mind can generate.  The 8 oz. jars caused so many jam-ups that I was running full speed in front of the oven from end to end trying to keep them in single file.

At about the seventh hour I completely lost it.  I had shut down the oven a total of one minute and fifty seconds.  I had believed the foreman about possible explosions and had visions of a giant fireball and millions of pieces of pickle shrapnel slamming into me if I exceeded the two-minute mark.  I could see my mother explaining to my father at the funeral home that it would have to be a closed casket affair because all that was left of their second born was a green glob emitting a horrible briny stench.

I looked around and my eyes fell on an ax handle propped up in one corner.  I grabbed the ax handle, now completely out of my mind, and started wailing away at the conveyor and the jamming up pickle jars.  My training as a baseball player came in handy as I was used to swinging a bat and was driving pickle jars to all fields.  And the pickles kept coming.

At the seven and half hour mark I spotted the foreman strolling toward the oven.  I dropped the ax handle and charged him.  This was the first time I had experience what a pure, massive dose of adrenalin does to you.  When I got to the foreman I grabbed him by the front of his shirt and literally picked him up off the floor and pinned him against the wall.  I told him if he didn’t relieve me I was going to kill him.  He apparently believed me because he squealed he had forgot I was down here and if I let him go he would go get someone to take my place.  I let him go and he left at a run.

In a couple of minutes he was back with my replacement.  He then gave me the easiest job on the floor for the last couple of hours of the shift.  The job consisted of sitting on a stool and watching the pickle jars go through the labeling machine to make sure they all got a label. I sat there as the sea of pickles passed me by.  While I was there I saw a miracle of biblical proportions.  At one point the line was stopped and a worker put new labels in the machine and the line was turned back on.  But now, the pickles had become kosher.

And that’s how I was driven mad by pickles.  Nothing was ever said to me about the carnage I had wrought with the ax handle and the fact that I had threatened the life of the foreman.  I think it might have had something to do with the lack of job applications on file in the office.